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Can i post alittle ? (: Anyway, i'm still alive after so damn long. It's also been like half a year since the one that i love, left me. And i'm all alone till then. I've got so much to say. So so much to share. But i guess this is the only space that i could actually rant everything out (; Can't deny, i admit i miss my little boy so much. The one who promised me he wouldn't leave me alone. But he left. In any case of misunderstanding, i tried to explain. If i really doesn't want you, there's no way i could spent my time explaining these much. I care, that's why i make an effort to do so); And i just need you to know, you're still my priority, even until now. I'm missing you, LeeYongQin('; Tuesday, 6March2012 When i was working at West Mall few days back (i think) i happened to saw his sist. We did smile, but.. sigh :( If we're still together, she'll call me 'Er sao' (; Never will i believe that someone i trust the most can actually said something behind me. Imma liar ? What do you know about me? Okay can, this actually teaches me not to trust anyone anymore. Nobody other than me, myself. Continue to betray people behind them, you'll lose all your friends soon. I've got no other choices, but to settle everything one by one now. I hope i can handle it :( I need someone real, i need a new life. To start all over again (:
So currently, i'm at Kimberly's place with Shanyou, Bernard and Weihao (: Nothing for me to do here, they're watching some show and Kim's busy helping us to decorate our nails. Anyway, it's great to bump into KellyBei and Anling again.. After so long (: Don't blame me for mentioning him again please :( I can't control myself.. but i miss him alot :') I really hope everything goes well for him, don't be too stress out there(;  Goodbye, to the one that i love the most(';Yes, i did received a text from him. But oh well, i think i did something wrong again to deserve a scolding like duh -.- I've had enough :( I know how much stress you're facing inside camp, that's why i never want to talk about us anymore. That girl's voice's pretty sweet, i'm sure she's a beautiful lady ('; Good for you, you've been together with her for two days. I don't know whether is she a real or a fake girlfriend, but it doesn't matter anymore(: And me, shall stop hoping he'll turn back and pick me up again. Never. And no, he isn't at fault for treating me like this. Should just blame myself, no point blaming others. I don't regret loving you, i hope you never regret too(; I love you, i'll be happy if you're happy with her. Well.. the last thing i can do, Dear god, i hope everything goes well for him.. I'd run out of idea how to keep him with me ('; Goodbye for now ♥
 (Couple bear+21 red roses+Helium balloons= 100Balloons birthday party) I'm so sorry, but i love this picture so much :( We finally talked things out clearly today (; But no, we didn't get back together. But i'm glad we can still be friends. At least we're not stranger (';
(: He's awesome, that's why i choose not to give up. But well, things aren't going the way i want now, and sigh ); He totally give up on me.. And as for twitter incident, i tweet something about him out of anger. I did apologized, and explained those that i should explain. I cried again, when i promised Shazalind i'll not do that when we meet. She even told me this, "It'll be different story when you get to see him". True much.. (; So now, i sincerely hope we'll be fine. That super ugly Strawberry cake i bake for you on your birthday remember? (; Please don't forget how it taste.. Get some sleep, after i'm awake.. i need to start my life all over again. Should just remember what he said.. Stop blaming others, learn to accept the wrongs.  Look! He's such a cutiepie ^^I always thought that we're the most happy couple in the world(; Time's up, Game over :( Everything had ended, and he isn't by my side for one month plus :( Thick-skinned and bought him a bouquet and had it delivered to his place, but i guess he feels nothing at all. The worst of the worst is that, we had already planned nicely for our future home. Few years later after little boy ORD (; I hope we'll still be back together like how we used to be. Few days back, his mom called. I teared, it isn't because she blamed me. It's just purely because, i'm touched. She still remember me (; I think that's more than enough (; After we hanged up, i turn back and look at Teh. And i cried on her shoulder :( Darling Shazalind saw how much i'd done, and she stand by me. Other than posting it here and share it with this rectangular-ry lappy, there's no one i can actually share my feeling with. What i need now is not, "Judy, you should give up and move on" etc etc. Come'on darlingsss, that doesn't help at all. Not alittle :( The best thing for me to do now is, leave him alone. He need some fresh air :( But what i'm afraid now is that, he'll just gone for good. He's not going to return back to me. Omggg, lets just die.
Intend to close down this space, but ended up i still choose to post something here. My dear little boy doesn't want me anymore :( He's too stress over camp things and he had to worried about me when he's inside. I'm sorry, my dear boy. I'm at fault, i shouldn't go out with guys you dislike :( Everybody said we look cute together (; And i definitely remember how we go through everything even before 25December2010 ('; Sis.HuiQi , Gilbert.Goh, Aloysius, Wyonna, Elisa, Kimberly, Cynthia, and all those kitchen aunties witnessed our love. They know how our love story started and i still remember every single bits too(; I'm the one who brings you to camp, and i hope i'll still be the one who'll bring you out (: "Dear God, please help us find a way )'; "
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